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Yippee! I'm 17!!! (I just got seventeen this september 22) And huraaah.. does that I mean I can decide for myself? choose what I want? be a little more MATURE? As a matter of fact YES! But why are you guys treating me this way?! I'm old enough to decide for myself.. to choose what I want, to decide when or not to love.. to choose where will I be happy and not doing things that'll ONLY make you happy.. atleast be conciderate, I HAVE FEELINGS TOO. You scarin' me off will never do. GET IT?!

Whew! Well, that worked.. atleast I feel better now. Hmm.. by the way, I MISSED BLOGGING! I didn't blog for the last two weeks 'coz I'm banned using the internet at my dad's place.. I'm now here at my mom's and thanks to her I can mail my friends back at the Philippines. My dad's a douche.. he won't let me use the internet because of my boyfriend back at the Philippines! I mean, c'mon we can't even see each other?! And oh.. the thing I said about changing for the better?? It's not for the better! I felt so heartbroken not getting to talk to him and even my friends! Good thing I can internet on my mom's place, I read his messages on friendster and facebook and it was so sweet. He loves me so much, so why would I wanna break up with him and I still love him? I can't fool myself? So what if I'm still young? I'm old enough to choose who I wanna be with for the rest of my life and I'm sure he'll give me a bright future someday.. YEAH! I SAID IT! I'm only hoping nobody from my family reads this.. we're still in a secret relationship because them finding out will be trouble again.

THOUGHT IT'S OVER?!

Well, I still have somethin' to say.. as my birthday gift from mom. She called to order a red comet brand of clothing that I saw from ranzuki magazine and it's gonna come tomorrow! Yipee! It looks like this.



Well, I still want contacts so I hope mom will agree, her buying me contacts that I saw from ranzuki magazine.. my mom's lazy when it comes to shopping so it's a good thing I bought this ranzuki magazine.. I can order clothes, beauty products, contacts and etc. from the magazine! COOL!

When you’re in a foreign country and you see someone of the same race as you.. What do you do? Ignore them? Greet them? Or simply talk to them in Japanese even though you’re talking to him/her in tagalog?! Isn’t that kind of rude and really frustrating?! Well, that’s what happened to me on my nihonggo class.. So, last Monday I really don’t wanna go to class ‘coz I think it was kinda’ BORING but I attended anyways so I could get a basic kanji learning thing.. And so I biked my way to class, got there and told my sensei I was at Adachiku for 3 weeks that’s why I didn’t get to attend for a very long time.. Sashiburi! yeah.. yeah.. Then, I met this cool sensei Shizue, she’s really easy to talk to and I like her! *FASTFORWARD* And so the classes are about to end.. And it some Rashi guy’s birthday! He gave out chocolates and I told him Omedetto! & nice to meet you! ~ He seem really nice and we shook hands.. And did I tell you there was a cute guy in black? Which I think is Korean? Hehehe.. He’s cute but his face is dirty ‘coz he didn’t shave! Haha! But anyway, I decided to wear cute clothes from now on if I’m gonna attend class and not some barabara clothes! Haha! Okay, so moving on with the main subject.. Class is over so it’s time the new students introduce themselves and there are two Filipinas! I was so happy and excited! I quickly thought that those two could be my friends! I think the other was the same age as me and the other one seems 13-ish or 14-ish so I told my sensei I’ll introduce myself later or next week since I’m kinda shy but my sensei said c’mon I’ll come with you.. So my sensei told the girls my name’s Erika chan and I told them “Hajimemashite! Filipino kayo!” (Duh?! Obviously I was nervous that’s why I talked that way..) So the 13-ish/14-ish girl didn’t reply so I asked “Ano pangalan mo?” (What’s your name?) And she said “Watashi wa namae wa HER NAME” (I think it was Cyntia? Or Shinja? I forgot!) and my mind was like I talked to you in tagalog?! Why can’t you just reply in tagalog?! And then I told her “Magkasama kayo?” (*while pointing at the other Filipina* Yeah.. I mess up when I’m nervous.. I know there together but I still asked! What a dummy!) And the 13-ish/14-ish girl was like “Firipin jin” (*while pointing at her companion*) Then I smiled at the other Filipina girl.. She smiled back and that is all.. I left, It seems to me that they couldn’t understand me anyway even though I’m talking to them in a language that they could understand, I mean.. would it hurt to talk tagalog here in Japan? And I was so frustrated because when those girls were introducing themselves they can’t even talk japanese and now, that I’m talking to them in tagalog they are acting like japanese experts or something! I HATE people like that! I told my aunt about this and she said that.. may this be a lesson for me to never approach Filipino/nas first and let them be the first to approach.

I hope other Filipinos and Filipinas in Japan are not like those two that I have encountered. It’s frustrating!

Now I am proud to say that I am not pure Filipina.. ‘Coz those Filipina girls I’ve met looked really Filipino/na~ish. I HATE THEIR ATTITUDE!

『August 15, 2009』~ One of the worst days of my LIFE!

This is a rant about drunk people part 2! And this time, it gone worst! Here's the story..

So, my stepdad called and he invited me and my mom to go eat at some place with his bestfriend, Ei Chan. We ate at some place that serves "onomiyaki". Then my stepdad, again GOT DRUNK! and in the middle of the afternoon huh?! So.. we we're about to leave, they've decided to go to Ei Chan's place.. I've reminded my mom not to get drunk 'coz I don't wanna happen what happened last time. We went to the car and my stepdad spank me in the arm and he's acting like a bully so I cried.. even though he's drunk he comforted me which I don't like because I'm not use to him touching me.. and my mom was like, "Let it be, your stepdad is always like that when he's drunk so get used to it." And I'm kinda sad 'coz as my mom, she should say something to my stepdad and not say something to me, right?! *FASTFORWARD* We're at Ei Chan's place!!! There I met Ei Chan's wife, Mrs. Yumi. She's a nice lady, nicer than my mom!!! Yeah.. and I met a cute little dog who seems to like me so much for she is licking me on the face and even the lips all the time, Poke! haha! And I met Mi Chang, her husband and her two children. I also met her brother Yuta which was also nice to me, my stepdad was pairing me up with Yuta that day, yeah.. he was hot but he already has a girlfriend. Okay so we we're there and obviously they're drinking.. AGAIN! I kept going to the toilet room just to cry 'coz I don't want them to see me cry. do you know why I'm crying? Well.. my drunk stepdad keeps targetting me! He's shouting at me all the time, telling me bad words and stuff like I did something wrong even though I didn't! I just had to stay away from him, my mom doesn't even care of what I feel 'coz she's also drunk. (You see?! I told her not to drink and she just had to drink!) *FASTFORWARD* Okay.. now, we went to this bar.. well not really a bar like they have on the Philippines. It's like a bar that is family friendly! So we went there and I was kinda' frustrated 'coz I thought we we're going home, I mean c'mon! My mom's drunk and also my stepdad! We should be heading home but NO!!! We just have to go to this place which I'm not very fond of, plus! I hate dealing with drunk people!!! And my mom just keeps going with my stepdad's decisions, it's like she doesn't even know I'm there! Hmm.. so where we're we? Oh yeah.. the bar, this is the part where I've just had it! And I bursted all of my hidden feelings! Because, my drunk stepdad keeps teasing me and keeps targetting me so I cried and told my mom that "I don't wanna be here! You know I hate dealing with drunk people! I wanna go home! I wanna go back to dad!" And she calmly said, "Okay, tomorrow you can call your dad then leave." I was crying and my mom was just sitting there not even coming to me and say sorry (Well, she apologized eventually.) , she was just sitting there, laughing and drinking AGAIN and AGAIN! She doesn't even know she's already drunk and I'm very embarassed. *FASTFORWARD* So we left the bar and I was so excited and relieved! I said to myself that finally we're going home! Yeah! Little do I know that we're headed for another bar! OMF-! Oh man! I was so frustrated! But, I have nothing to do but to wait for them to stop drinking. So there, my mom danced like a retarded fool! My stepdad was sleeping! Oh my God! It was a dissaster! After that finally we went home! I think Ei Chan ordered a taxi and a driver to drive my stepdad's car and to drive me and my mom home. I was so amazed at Japan! The Philippines wouldn't do that, I mean, instead of driving my stepdad's car to go home, Filipino's would steal that car and would've murdered my stepdad and us! But NO! And imagine, that time was like midnight! I was so amazed! You can definitely trust Japanese!!!

So there.. the story of what had happen on that stinkin' day! I don't wanna come here to Adachikun if I have to experienced this one more time! I want this to be the last time!!!

But, my stepdad and my mom eventually apologized.. I just hope they won't do that to me again!

I was inspired to do this rant/blog because of my mom & stepdad. THEY are both alchoholics and I respect the fact that they are who they are.. it's just that it bugs me when it gets over the line.

So yesterday night I was playing Pet Society slash watching Youtube. They are both drinking AGAIN (Every night they do that, but I don't mind.) but, this time they both got drunk. And you know what happens when they both got drunk? Yeah.. you don't know but I'll tell you.. they FIGHT. Yeah.. like talking about divorce and stuff and you know bicker againts each other.. I really don't mind since they're are drunk and they're really not on their right minds, just don't let me get involve, I'll mind my own business and then you both fight over there.. I won't hear you 'coz I'm wearing earphones. But yesterday my stepdad keeps calling me and he's tone of voice was pretty mad.. he keeps calling me and you know, he wants me to get involve and my mom was crying and telling me, "This is our problem, don't get involve" and my stepdad keeps holding me on the shoulders which I really don't like.. (I dunno I just don't like people that I don't want to touch me, touch me or even be near me.) Yeah.. you wouldn't know 'coz you are not on my condition but trust me it wasn't good so I tried to get away from it by telling my stepdad that I'm going to the bathroom.. then there, I had a meltdown. I cried in the bathroom and spent 5 minutes there for a while.. then I decided to turn off my laptop and go to sleep.. still, my stepdad keeps calling me, so I go there and try to ride with what he's saying just so he wouldn't do stuff to me 'coz I'm really really scared. I'm afraid he'll hurt me, shout at me.. yeah.. I'm pretty dramatic but, the feeling and the experience from that night, I don't want to experience ever!

BOTTOM LINE : I don't want to deal with drunk people ever! I don't even wanna get drunk 'coz I'm afraid of what I will do afterwards because my mom's kind of a war freak when she's drunk and so is my dad. But, atleast my dad doesn't drink now (Only when he's still in the Philippines and that's like 5 or 4 years ago.) and that's what I like about him. I'm afraid to be like them.. and in the future, I don't want my kids to see me like my mom 'coz I don't wanna be like her. And so is my husband.. if I wanna get a husband I don't want him to get drunk when he drinks. Good thing Rainer has ulcer and can't drink to much - wait! are we still together?! Nahhh..

Well, I probably should mind my own business, right?! After all they (The one I'm gonna rant about.) aren't doing anything to me. But, I still want to do this and I think many people and not just me are irritated to these people. And if you are reading this and you are one of "these people" that I'm talking about, don't be offended because it's true and like what Kelly Cutrone said on The City, "The truth hurts." Well some of you may know but, anyway let's get on with it shall we?

Okay so.. If you're a Friendster user, you probably noticed people typing like this.. "acquoh poh xii.. (ako po si..) aii labk mahh.. (i love my..)" etc.. right?! Them ghetto wanna be's typing nonsense. Irritating huh?! I just thought maybe they don't know how to spell the words or ANY words even the SIMPLEST of words, that's why they keep adding to much H and Z's, S and C's, changing the K or C to Q. For example, LABK which is LOVE. Dang! They can't even pronounce that word! So why are these people like this?! Why are they typing these way?! Well, it's simple. In my theory, they are just attention seekers, low life ghetto wanna be's who tries to be cool but fails. They don't know how to spell and use punctuation marks the right way, that's why they keep adding tons of periods, exclamation points and question marks. They're dummies and so on.

So why am irritated again with these people?! Because I can't f****** understand them!
Ya know what am sayin'?!?!

C O P Y C A T - Someone who copies the words or behavior of another.
One who imitates others' work without adding ingenuity; To act as a copycat;
to copy in a shameless or derivative way; Imitative; unoriginal.

We all hate copycats. I mean, who doesn't?! Even copycats hate their kind! Because they are thieves! They steal ideas from another and they never give credit for it. Why do these people even existed for crying out loud?! And you're all probably wondering why I hate them so much. Well, you see, I was always a victim of these filty, shameless creatures and so is my closest friend. And when I see someone copying another it just gross me out. I feel sorry for copycats 'cause when was God was giving away ORIGINALITY, they we're all sleeping like babies.

So now you know why I hate/can't stand/curse/despise/dislike them.