Ew! My title sounds like I'm so desperate! Oh wait, I AM FUCKIN' DESPERATE!!!

Everybody keeps telling me to JUST WAIT ~ 'coz someone out there's gonna cum.. I mean, come and be the perfect guy for you! Well, how long do I have to wait for this bastard!? I know I feel so ready to be in a relationship! But, how long will it take for this guy to come and be with me?! (Omg so stressing!) And I don't need someone perfect at all ~ I need someone who I ACTUALLY LIKE ~ not someone who I'd be with just 'coz he likes me.

Lately, I've been so depressed.. I haven't been in an actual relationship for almost 2 years and I missed being loved! I missed saying 'I love you' to some guy lololol. Okay, ew.. I'm beginning to become super cheesy and mushy! But, it's true!!! All I wanna do is.. go on a date with this guy or something whenever I'm off work just so I could relax and be happy with someone ~ I know to myself that I can't be happy with my friends as much as being with some guy 'coz being with him would be special! 'Coz I get to like kiss him or whatever! Now, can you do that to your friend? No!

I really envy my friends from the Philippines who now have boyfriends! I mean, they're so happy and looking at their pictures makes me feel miserable! I mean, why can't I be with someone I really like? How come everytime I end up liking someone.. he only sees me as a friend or he already has a gf ooor he has a problem with our age gap! OR he's leaving for Canada! Dammit!

Why why why?!?! How long do I have to wait?!?!