This is going to be a more personal post. It's just that I feel like I need to let this out and I've no one to talk to, my friends don't know anything about it and I haven't gone online on facebook for a while.. this post is going to be about my aunt.

I really can't describe how much I feel for her right now and her friends. I'm really really irritated and just pissed off at 'em but I don't hate 'em it's just that they're all just too much and I just can't stand and bear all the things they say to me.

Okay so, last tuesday I went home tired from work because I did overtime and then, all of a sudden.. my dad came up to me and lectured me.. he asked me 'What am I doing following someone?' (he is referring to my friend.. my aunt and her friends claim that I copy everything she does and so on..) and I'm kind of shocked because I really dunno what he's talking about but he said that my 'friend' had a mac computer so I wanted one too for my birthday, my 'friend' cut her hair short so I did cut mine too (but mine's not that short..) and now, my 'friend' moved out of the house and now I wanted to move out too! Like, I never said anything like that and why tell this right now? I remember telling Megumi I wanted to move out but NOT NOW that I'm still 18. I plan to move out when I'm stable and I'm above 20 years of age. And Megumi doesn't even know my family how can she tell my aunt and my dad. I asked my dad where did he hear it from and he said my aunt told him. I was angry at my aunt for telling him something I DID NOT TELL HER OR ANYONE OF HER FRIENDS. I am mad because she's telling him lies and made up stories that she can't support and the only evidence she has is that she heard it from someone but I did not tell anyone about it but Megumi and she doesn't know my family. So, now I'm mad at her and her friends and cancelled the treat I was planning for 'em for my birthday. The thing that hurt me the most is that they're claiming that I keep copying my friend. It's like, she is automatically thinking that I would want to move out too now that she moved out! That's why she said those things to my dad. What a b#$%&!

Just because she has mac computer, blonde hair, cuts her hair short and just 'coz she moved out that doesn't mean SHE ONLY HAS THE RIGHT TO HAVE/DO ALL THOSE THINGS. Just 'coz she's the first person to do things/have things I like/I want doesn't mean I'm already copying her.

We both have different styles I can tell and it sucks because since we kinda looked a like people always compare us. At first I was really glad to be compared to her because she's really cool but everytime that I'd meet up with my aunt and her friends, they keep commenting on how I am so similar to her and so on.. I get really pissed because I am not doing anything to copy her at all.. like seriously I am just being myself and it's like all they see is her in me. Which is depressing and sad. She wears make up and I wear make up, they'd tell me I'm copying her and that I shouldn't wear make up and stop because I'm starting to look like her. (-_-:) So sad to have people like this exist on earth. DON'T I HAVE THE RIGHT TO WEAR MAKE UP JUST 'COZ SHE WEARS MAKE UP?!?! Like whaa?!

So now, my aunt's friend is inviting me to go to her daughter's birthday. I honestly don't wanna go because I want to avoid all the commenting and my aunt's gonna be there and I want to AVOID HER. But because I'm not rude, I'm going to attend anyway. I'll probably just eat and when I'm full I'll leave.