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First, I would like to say that I will be deleting previous blog entries of mine that includes that certain person which I don't wanna talk about.

Okay, about meddling people.. I was really irritated to my friend 'coz she's so meddling.. she meddles to fights that aren't hers and that just pisses me off.. and she doesn't even know the whole story yet! She has no right to just meddle! Right?

As of now, I am mad of her.. for telling mean things to my other friend, yet she doesn't even know how the whole story went, for her to judge my other friend.. and even if she knew it from one certain person.. that certain person I knew is a total liar, 'coz he's the guy that I don't wanna talk about!

Now, I don't wanna say names.. 'coz I don't wanna start a fight or anythin' coz that'll only lead to drama.. and I DON'T LIKE DRAMAS!

My blog maybe confusing 'coz I'm not being direct and I'm not saying names.
But the point of this is to tell every single meddling/nosy people out there to just STFU!!!

Nobody wants you! Nobody likes you meddling or nosying (I don't know if that's even a word)!!! 'Coz you're all irritating! And I don't like you people!!!

Yesterday was full of drama.. But it's okay now, am really happy I have a new friend that is KOOL! And we both got lots of in common.. so yeah! she's real cool! hahaha.. omg am so narcist much?!?! I gotta stop bein' like that.. it's disturbing hahahahaha!

Okay, do you wanna know who she is?? It's really unexpected but yeah! She is dicko's ex! Avi! Hahaha!!! (dicko?!?!)

Anyway, yeah.. I've been getting a lot of request from my friends that I SHOULD make a youtube site and make videos.. I'm still kinda shy but I wanted to make a video too.. so, forget about being shy! It's time to shine baby!

*Talking to myself* No ME! That line isn't cool! It's gay!

OMG! I'm so gay.. not that I hate gays you know? I'm just not used to those words (The inspirational thing type) 'coz I can't deliver well.. aww! Hahaha! Enjoyin' myself now!

Okaay, so this post was supposed to be on Valentines Day but since we just got our internet connection on our new house I just posted this now.

Right, so.. this is my first time celebratin' Valentines here in Japan and it's real different from the Phils. Like there.. boys are supposed to give you flowers, chocolates and stuff while here in Japan, the girls are supposed to give boys chocolate whether bought or handmade.. That's called Choco Giri. You're supposed to make chocolates for boys so on White Day, that's like on march, you'll get a present in return! It's either, cookies, necklace, lingerie.. etc.. I just googled it! hahaha!

Here some of the pictures of what we did last Valentines with my cousin Rina, she just turned 11 and she has a boyfriend!!! Hahaa! WOW! And with her friend To-chan.. well, not exactly her friend 'coz she said she hated To-chan.. Hmmm..





My cookies looks badd and tastes badd!!!







We messed up BIGTIME!!!



After several failures makin' cookies we decided to head to Saty to do purikura!!! yey! then, we bought ingredients for chocolate truffles.



Mix Mix Mix.. And the results.. TADAAA!!!



All done! Hahaha!

P.S.

I just helped my cousin, I didn't gave any chocos to boys even my dad.. so I won't expect to receive any from White Day.. huhuhu! ( T ^ T ) Well, maybe next time..

Was that the word am lookin' for? Well.. yeah! It is!

Like I wish I could turn back time and redo all the shit I did back then..

But that would be so impossible! I know..

It's like bein' here in Japan.. made me like stop.. and not move at all while all the people I know grew.. better or worst!

And I feel uncool.. so lousy.. hmmfp. ( > o < )

Like everything I want isn't meant for me.

Okay, so let's take a recap and talk about this drama.

In my previous blogs, you'll see that I'm so falling for a guy named Richard
but, after I've found out his unacceptable flaw.. I wanna stop mailing him but I can't 'coz I don't wanna tell him I don't like him anymore.. BECAUSE he's my friend and I don't wanna ruin the friendship 'coz I think telling him I hate him and I don't wanna be his would ruin it.

Second, I unblocked my x boyfriend from my facebook, the reason is that.. there is no more reason for me to block him especially now that he's no longer messaging me.

The reason why am melancholic because after him greeting me for our 3 year anniversary.. am just gonna find out that he already has a girlfriend. To top it of, he's cousin told me that he's x girlfriend whom we always fought about is always sleeping with him. Well.. isn't that sad?!

After everything.. do you think I can still trust a guy?! NO!!!
Well.. now, and about Richard's flaws.. I do not wanna tell but it's an extreme turn off, especially for me since I don't like manwhores. But that's that.. what happened just happened and we can't turn back time.

So what am I supposed to do? Simple..

Wait...

My Grandfather.. passed away last thursday 'cause of heart attack. Still, I cannot believe he's dead. Last time I saw him.. he was still healthy. I regret that I didn't even get to talk to him right before his death and that I am not in the philippines to see his face, to hear his last words, to eat his last cooking etc..

But still.. life goes on.. I know he's now happy and I'm glad he's not suffering from hospital tools and stuff. I'm glad to know that he's safe.. guiding us.. protecting us and not to mention with God. I know I couldn't be with him for the last time but I will always remember him. His jokes, laughter, cooking and sometimes when he's irritated, angry, his advice and so on..

New year's resolution?! It'll be DIET of course! I don't wanna be a lumpy 'ol chump anymore!!! huhuhuhu.. ( T v T )
and yeah.. I would not forget to mention.. to be a lot more closer to God.

For the past couple of years I've done so many mistakes/sins that now I regretted doin'. I tell myself If I could just go back to the past and tell myself of things that I know that's gonna happen.. But that would be impossible. The only thing I could think of doing to give coverage of all the mistakes/sins that I've done is by doing good things from the heart.. and avoid doing mistakes. But a person as I am I know I'm not perfect.. I cannot promise to not make mistakes but to just avoid doing it. I just don't want to do a big sin especially this year. So right here and now, a new and improved ME will be bustin' out this year!!! Yeah!!!

And yeah.. I'm also gonna blog about my new year story.

I spent my new year with The Kusagaya family. Sacho (actually he's a Kaicho but me and my dad call him Sacho because we are used to that) is like my dad's foster father here in Japan. That's why the Kusagaya's treat us like family for they knew each other for like over 10 years. And I also have filipino friends there.. well actually they're half filipinos and half japanese. They're Sacho's nieces. Anju, Arissa and Harumi are my new bestfriends here in Japan. I called them bestfriends for they are simply the best and they're not plastic at all! Not like the other friends I've known.

There's a lot of food! (oh yeah!) and guest for the Kusagayas are a big family! And of course fun! At the afternoon we teen girls went to a Karaoke house to sing! Like duh?! And I was all crazy jumping on the couch and was bouncing like a ball! It was so embarassing but we had so much fun.. then after Karaoke, outside of the karaoke house.. we we're doing this hep hep huraaay challenge and shagirishagiri thing.. it's on wowowee.. I really had no idea for back in manila we watch gma. haha!

We also received otoshidama. In japanese tradition, on new year's day they give money for they're siblings. But, if you're already working or 20 above. You won't be receiving otoshidama anymore. It's like pamasko on christmas but here in Japan it's just for family and they do it on new years. (but they treat me family so I got otoshidama hahaha!)

We also did magic tricks and puzzle things and I've learned so much!!! hahaha! My card magic has turned to level 0 to level 2 hahaha!!!

It was a blast! I never had this fun in the philippines 'coz on new years it's noisy and a lot of fireworks happening but we don't do fireworks for it's dangerous and I don't wanna!!! huhuhuhu!!!

P.S.
Okay this blogs over! I'll be adding pictures here right after my cousin's done with my phone! ( ^ V ^ )