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I made a blog account on wordpress.. but, turns out you have to pay for it just so you could customize it! And I have no freakin' dollars so I have to say goodbye and just cancel it.. now, I wanted to make a new gaming blog for my game reviews and such.. and I guess I'll make this my beauty and my life blog then.. since Tumblr is my fun blog! Hahaha.. I have so many blogs.. lololol. I guess I'm gonna make a gaming blog tomorrow but I guess it won't be here in blogspot.. (^v^ )~ not sure tho or maybe here again! aww..

And I want these wings.. just this. V


(Sorry for the copyright but I saw this on Tumblr a while back and I've never been so inlove! LOL. With tats..)

Tbh, I was afraid of tattoos before 'coz they said you'll never be able to donate blood anymore which is a complete false! 'Coz you can donate but it'll take 12 months or less! And that it'll leave a nasty scar if you decided to erase your tattoo. Then again.. I was thinking of asking my dad about this but I know the answer.. hmm, 'cuz y'know.. I grew up in a conservative family (yeah right).. and none of my family had tattoos(that's 'cuz their *cough* pussies *cough*)! So obviously, they won't allow me to have one especially am a girl(dammit!).. and that's just bogus.. my family! LOLOLOL. (I get no individuality! They say that being like Lady Gaga is being a complete gaga and that am crazy or maybe i bumped my head into aa rock or somethin')

K, so.. I don't wanna start complaining because I'd rather put that onto my next rant.. hehehe.. anyways, it's now 9:00am and I just woke up.. I'm thinking on how to start my morning.. and what I did is I took a shit and I just reblogged some post on Tumblr.. and right when am done with these.. I'ma go make me some coffee. So it's been nice to share some interests again! Good Morning!

☻ Woke up at 6:35am
☺ Woke up dad
☻ Got back to bed and woke up at 7-ish?
☺ Woke up dad, again!
☻ Ate breakfast
☺ Took a shower
☻ Got dressed
☺ Filled up extension form (for my visa)
☻ Went to immigration
☺ The extension form I just filled up was sooo last year! (LOL) They gave me a new one for me to fill up all over again
☻ It was they're lunchbreak! So.. we ate also
☺ I ate a waffle with ham and egg spread? egg cream? (???)
☻ Slept at the immigration.. while sitting
☺ Done, went back to Omiya..
☻ Found a show I like, It was size 23.. bummer!
☺ On the train and wtf? It's my aunt and my aunt na hilaw!
☻ I was like soo happy they bought me something.
☺ Went to Maruetsu
☻ Bought shoes and it's K-SWISS, dad doesn't like it but I don't care!
☺ Carried those fcukin' heavy shopped items..
☻ Went to aunt's house and rest
☺ 5 mins. rest is over dad ordered me to buy stuff for house.
☻ When I got back I went home, dad stayed a bit on my aunt's place.
☺ I hurried and went smoking.. in the bathroom! Took a shower too.
☻ Yehehes smooth ~ Now, did the dishes, cooked rice.
☺ Vacuumed living room, yey new curtains!
☻ Went hunger strike since am like sooo hungry! And dad was like 'we gonna go take a shower first!' I mean, gahd! So selfish!
☺ Ate ~ happy tummy!
☻ Did the dishes, again!
☺ And now I'm on facebook, tumblr aaand blogspot!

Thanks DAD!

Do you want to know the first thing that popped right out of my head when I woke up?

So, my cousin, Jerald.. went to our house and we had a little chat about family problems and we kinda got along 'coz we share the same problem.

I always forget to blog about that glorious day.. 'coz maybe am still thinking of good words to say.. well anyway.. (Wow! You noticed how every 'end' word rhymes? And I didn't do it on purpose! LOL.)

Here are some pictures of my cool experience with God and my fellow Christian friends~

This is me and Anju.. on the train. On the way (Rhyme again) to the Tokyo International Forum

This is me and Arisa ♥

Anju: hi jukes! share ko lg sayo yung nabasa ko from Joel Osteen Ministries. Read and meditate :)
Enjoy Jesus ♥

"…Mercy triumphs over judgment"
(James 2:13, NIV)

We've all made mistakes. We've all made wrong choices; but as believers in Jesus, that doesn't change our heritage. God doesn't kick us out of the kingdom because we're not perfect. Maybe you don't feel like you deserve God's goodness, or you think you're supposed to suffer through life and just endure that problem. But friends, this is what mercy is all about. His mercy will renew and restore you if you receive it by faith today.

No matter what you may have done wrong, you are still the apple of God's eye. You are still His most prized possession. You can still activate God's promises by faith today. Why don't you shake off the guilt and condemnation? Put your shoulders back and say, "I refuse to live below my privileges. I may not be perfect, but I am forgiven. I may have made mistakes, but God knows my heart is to please Him, and I am changing my ways. Even though I may have brought this trouble on myself, I'm going to stay in faith and expect God to turn it around."

~ I will always remember this statements ~
~ True, my mistakes/sins made me realize before that I am not worthy of God ~
~ but, right now.. getting close to him.. made me realize I'm wrong ~
~ Thank You Jesus! ♥ ♥ ♥ ~
~ He is my Savior! ~
~ I am free! ~

Dear Blog,

It's been a while.. and I have great news! I have a new boyfriend! Yep, 23rd of May, I have a new bf! His name is Richard, yeahhh.. the guy, I talked about in my previous blogs yadidaa.. Well, apparently, me and my past lover didn't work out.. It was hopeless! (jealousy, having no trust and issues! It will never work out!) So I went off and moved on and went with Richard ♥
Tbh, I dunno what came over me and asked him to be my boyfriend.. well, at first it was supposed to be a joke and see how he will react then wejcbfqkwevfoy2wevco12hevewucl1echb he's my bf! Ahahaha..
Yesterday, I was thinking If I still love my ex but, nahh.. I wouldn't choose my past for the present 'coz there's always a reason why me and my past didn't work out and that if I still continued being with him, I'll just end up getting hurt over and over again so.. I thought it was enough and I think I've already moved on..
But yeah.. we're in a long distance relationship ehehe.. btw, did I mention this new bf guy is also my really really tight friend? Like guy bestfriend?! So, I think I'll be happy with him! ♥ And since I have a new bf, I'll be embarassed to eat too much! So I'll have the inspiration to go on a super fast unhealthy diet! Because I think unhealthy diets are the fastest way to lose weight! Ahahaha..

P.S.

I also cut my hair today.. and put extensions.. seeeee??? I have lots of layerz now! And I trimmed my fringed so when I put on wax I can make my fringe pointy!!!



Erika♥

✖ Food made me fat! and I was fat before so it made me "Majimboo Fat"!
✖ Away from friends and relatives.. ( T ^ T )
✖ Getting nasty, disturbing, annoying and saddening rumors of *him* from friends or collegue which literally, made me cry every freakin' night! (Got over it now.. ahaha!)
✖ Literally degrades my English Vocabulary.. and it's true! since I've been here for a year I've noticed that I'm having difficulty constructing english sentences and in spelling. Now I know why Japanese thinks that a person who is really good in Japanese and at the same time in English, is a really really totally super smart person!
✖ Again.. food??? Err.....
✖ And I thought winter is good until I've found out how irritating winter is..... well, when it snowed it's good!
✖ Trust me! winter? is equals to dry skin.. I repeat! DRY SKIN!!!!!
✖ Getting annoying rumors about me from the Philippines which is irritating me and making me wanna spit acid on 'em! Too bad I wasn't alien!
✖ And since I'm a dumbass in Japanese and a shy bastard! I have no boyfriend! And I'm officially.. super.. TIGANG NA! ( ^ o ^ ) Whoa! I did not just say that! But I did! Yay me!!!
TIGANG
TIGANG
TIGANG
TIGANG
TIIIGAAANG!!!!! Errrrr..... *throwing pillows*

And that's my story..... < / 3

Out of excitement, I tried out my new hair curler and curled my hair.. but fail! I can't get it together that's why instead of using my hair curler, I used my new hair straightener with bubzbeauty from youtube.. I watched her Runway Curls tutorial.. she used a hair straightener to curl her hair.. I followed her tutorial and it absolutely looked good on me.. Not to be narcist but true! Yeah! I feel purrty today!





And the plus side.. I've been getting a lot of compliments today.. even though I accidentally deleted my album with tons of pictures of me that I could never retrieve ever again 'coz my pictures on my computer were also deleted due to virus.. Yeah! And I'm super pissed at the time but I'm planning on deleting my pictures anyways.. I just didn't want it all to be deleted.. *sigh* But I'm okay now! And it'll be a lot cooler if my crush would mail me! And I'm still waiting.. waiting.. waiting.. waiting.. bored!

First, I would like to say that I will be deleting previous blog entries of mine that includes that certain person which I don't wanna talk about.

Okay, about meddling people.. I was really irritated to my friend 'coz she's so meddling.. she meddles to fights that aren't hers and that just pisses me off.. and she doesn't even know the whole story yet! She has no right to just meddle! Right?

As of now, I am mad of her.. for telling mean things to my other friend, yet she doesn't even know how the whole story went, for her to judge my other friend.. and even if she knew it from one certain person.. that certain person I knew is a total liar, 'coz he's the guy that I don't wanna talk about!

Now, I don't wanna say names.. 'coz I don't wanna start a fight or anythin' coz that'll only lead to drama.. and I DON'T LIKE DRAMAS!

My blog maybe confusing 'coz I'm not being direct and I'm not saying names.
But the point of this is to tell every single meddling/nosy people out there to just STFU!!!

Nobody wants you! Nobody likes you meddling or nosying (I don't know if that's even a word)!!! 'Coz you're all irritating! And I don't like you people!!!

Yesterday was full of drama.. But it's okay now, am really happy I have a new friend that is KOOL! And we both got lots of in common.. so yeah! she's real cool! hahaha.. omg am so narcist much?!?! I gotta stop bein' like that.. it's disturbing hahahahaha!

Okay, do you wanna know who she is?? It's really unexpected but yeah! She is dicko's ex! Avi! Hahaha!!! (dicko?!?!)

Anyway, yeah.. I've been getting a lot of request from my friends that I SHOULD make a youtube site and make videos.. I'm still kinda shy but I wanted to make a video too.. so, forget about being shy! It's time to shine baby!

*Talking to myself* No ME! That line isn't cool! It's gay!

OMG! I'm so gay.. not that I hate gays you know? I'm just not used to those words (The inspirational thing type) 'coz I can't deliver well.. aww! Hahaha! Enjoyin' myself now!

Okaay, so this post was supposed to be on Valentines Day but since we just got our internet connection on our new house I just posted this now.

Right, so.. this is my first time celebratin' Valentines here in Japan and it's real different from the Phils. Like there.. boys are supposed to give you flowers, chocolates and stuff while here in Japan, the girls are supposed to give boys chocolate whether bought or handmade.. That's called Choco Giri. You're supposed to make chocolates for boys so on White Day, that's like on march, you'll get a present in return! It's either, cookies, necklace, lingerie.. etc.. I just googled it! hahaha!

Here some of the pictures of what we did last Valentines with my cousin Rina, she just turned 11 and she has a boyfriend!!! Hahaa! WOW! And with her friend To-chan.. well, not exactly her friend 'coz she said she hated To-chan.. Hmmm..





My cookies looks badd and tastes badd!!!







We messed up BIGTIME!!!



After several failures makin' cookies we decided to head to Saty to do purikura!!! yey! then, we bought ingredients for chocolate truffles.



Mix Mix Mix.. And the results.. TADAAA!!!



All done! Hahaha!

P.S.

I just helped my cousin, I didn't gave any chocos to boys even my dad.. so I won't expect to receive any from White Day.. huhuhu! ( T ^ T ) Well, maybe next time..

Was that the word am lookin' for? Well.. yeah! It is!

Like I wish I could turn back time and redo all the shit I did back then..

But that would be so impossible! I know..

It's like bein' here in Japan.. made me like stop.. and not move at all while all the people I know grew.. better or worst!

And I feel uncool.. so lousy.. hmmfp. ( > o < )

Like everything I want isn't meant for me.

Okay, so let's take a recap and talk about this drama.

In my previous blogs, you'll see that I'm so falling for a guy named Richard
but, after I've found out his unacceptable flaw.. I wanna stop mailing him but I can't 'coz I don't wanna tell him I don't like him anymore.. BECAUSE he's my friend and I don't wanna ruin the friendship 'coz I think telling him I hate him and I don't wanna be his would ruin it.

Second, I unblocked my x boyfriend from my facebook, the reason is that.. there is no more reason for me to block him especially now that he's no longer messaging me.

The reason why am melancholic because after him greeting me for our 3 year anniversary.. am just gonna find out that he already has a girlfriend. To top it of, he's cousin told me that he's x girlfriend whom we always fought about is always sleeping with him. Well.. isn't that sad?!

After everything.. do you think I can still trust a guy?! NO!!!
Well.. now, and about Richard's flaws.. I do not wanna tell but it's an extreme turn off, especially for me since I don't like manwhores. But that's that.. what happened just happened and we can't turn back time.

So what am I supposed to do? Simple..

Wait...

My Grandfather.. passed away last thursday 'cause of heart attack. Still, I cannot believe he's dead. Last time I saw him.. he was still healthy. I regret that I didn't even get to talk to him right before his death and that I am not in the philippines to see his face, to hear his last words, to eat his last cooking etc..

But still.. life goes on.. I know he's now happy and I'm glad he's not suffering from hospital tools and stuff. I'm glad to know that he's safe.. guiding us.. protecting us and not to mention with God. I know I couldn't be with him for the last time but I will always remember him. His jokes, laughter, cooking and sometimes when he's irritated, angry, his advice and so on..

New year's resolution?! It'll be DIET of course! I don't wanna be a lumpy 'ol chump anymore!!! huhuhuhu.. ( T v T )
and yeah.. I would not forget to mention.. to be a lot more closer to God.

For the past couple of years I've done so many mistakes/sins that now I regretted doin'. I tell myself If I could just go back to the past and tell myself of things that I know that's gonna happen.. But that would be impossible. The only thing I could think of doing to give coverage of all the mistakes/sins that I've done is by doing good things from the heart.. and avoid doing mistakes. But a person as I am I know I'm not perfect.. I cannot promise to not make mistakes but to just avoid doing it. I just don't want to do a big sin especially this year. So right here and now, a new and improved ME will be bustin' out this year!!! Yeah!!!

And yeah.. I'm also gonna blog about my new year story.

I spent my new year with The Kusagaya family. Sacho (actually he's a Kaicho but me and my dad call him Sacho because we are used to that) is like my dad's foster father here in Japan. That's why the Kusagaya's treat us like family for they knew each other for like over 10 years. And I also have filipino friends there.. well actually they're half filipinos and half japanese. They're Sacho's nieces. Anju, Arissa and Harumi are my new bestfriends here in Japan. I called them bestfriends for they are simply the best and they're not plastic at all! Not like the other friends I've known.

There's a lot of food! (oh yeah!) and guest for the Kusagayas are a big family! And of course fun! At the afternoon we teen girls went to a Karaoke house to sing! Like duh?! And I was all crazy jumping on the couch and was bouncing like a ball! It was so embarassing but we had so much fun.. then after Karaoke, outside of the karaoke house.. we we're doing this hep hep huraaay challenge and shagirishagiri thing.. it's on wowowee.. I really had no idea for back in manila we watch gma. haha!

We also received otoshidama. In japanese tradition, on new year's day they give money for they're siblings. But, if you're already working or 20 above. You won't be receiving otoshidama anymore. It's like pamasko on christmas but here in Japan it's just for family and they do it on new years. (but they treat me family so I got otoshidama hahaha!)

We also did magic tricks and puzzle things and I've learned so much!!! hahaha! My card magic has turned to level 0 to level 2 hahaha!!!

It was a blast! I never had this fun in the philippines 'coz on new years it's noisy and a lot of fireworks happening but we don't do fireworks for it's dangerous and I don't wanna!!! huhuhuhu!!!

P.S.
Okay this blogs over! I'll be adding pictures here right after my cousin's done with my phone! ( ^ V ^ )