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気持ち・・・(Feelings...) - E R I K A

気持ち・・・(Feelings...)

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

Wow! Another blog? Hihi.. やっぱり凄く隙だな~アタシ。。。Today, I finished watching Kimi ni Todoke Season 1 and now I'm gon' to Season 2!!! But, I'll watch later, 'coz I have to get on with this post.. I wanted to post this tomorrow but, why not now? I might forget about this tomorrow and I'll probably be too busy 'coz my next yasumi will be on the 12th so yeah.. here we go.. let's see..


I had fun watching the series.. somehow, some of the scenes there fits me and I could totally relate to Chizuru. *SPOILER ALERT* Okay, so Chizuru is inlove with her childhood friend's brother, Tooru but, unfortunately.. Tooru Is engaged with his girlfriend and the age gap that they have.. Chizu is around 15 or 16 and Tooru's 24 so, 絶対無理だよ!!! Yes yes.. same as me, if you read my previous blogs, I've talked about Machang.. the guy I'm inlove/infatuated or whatever.. Well, everybody thinks that I don't really love him and that I'm just infatuated. I thought of what they've said and I realized they're wrong.. 'coz I know my own feelings and I know I really really like him. I really love him actually.. just 'coz I've only known him for almost 2 months.. doesn't mean I can't develop such feelings for him. I fall in love with a person I really like so fast.. and it's so 珍しい for me to fall in love with a guy anyway. 'Coz I'm usually picky. Oh okay, I say too much.. So the thing is, I learned a lot from the series.. I'm always this person who wanted things to move fast.. I'm always impatient and stubborn that when I want it, I must have it. But, I've realized that I was being too immature.. and that I regret I've confessed my feelings to Machang so fast that he might thought of it as a joke. I knew he has a gf so I should've respected that but, what's done is done! And I already told him how I felt.. and I guess that's enough. I'm not expecting him to be my boyfriend anymore! Seeing him almost everyday makes me happy. Him talking to me and cracking jokes with me makes me happy.. Seeing him happy makes me happy. Him asking favors from me makes me happy. And I guess, what's important is that I'M HAPPY and I'M CONTENTED of whatever relationship we have right now. I shouldn't rush love and I thank all of the people who commented on my last post of where I was being so childish.. and they're all right, I mean, I shouldn't rush on finding someone.. and that I should focus on myself and my friends more because when the time comes I'll have a bf, I might start ignoring my friends and that I might forget about loving myself more instead giving all that love to that person. So yeah! From now on, I'll be more patient and I'll focus on what's more important in my life. それだけ。。。THANKS FOR READING!!!

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