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Today, I spent my yasumi with ate Joy, his son, Toshi and my brother, Ryouta at Iwatsuki Koen. And after almost 2 years of living in Saitama.. it is actually my first time going into some park! I am actually not that into parks 'coz there's a bunch of grass and uhh.. BUGS! To say it the least, I hate nature! But I must say, I had fun and I feel relaxed 'coz the breeze was so nice that I slept on the grass.. (but not actually on the grass 'coz we had a picnic kinda sheet.. is that what you call it?!) Anyway, here are some pics of the weight losing meee with ate Joy, Toshi and Ryou.

< no need for editing 'coz the lighting's very nice and yeah.. camera quality's pretty good! >

< Sup, braaahhh?!?! >

< This is Toshi, isn't he adowable?!?! >

< Me & Toshi (I like me here! I look so natural and uhh cool! lololol.) >


< Me and ate Joy! >



..yeahhh, so that's pretty much it! I don't wanna upload everything 'coz this ain't no album! It's a blog! Oh and hey, I took a picture of my eyes there.. 'coz like am so bored, no internetzzz! (-_-;) Here it is!!!



Omg my eyes are so pretty here (not being narcissistic though) it's so different like, I have some kind of unicorn eyes or whatever..

I AM FUCKIN' LOSING WEIGHT! OMG!!!
Today, I lost atleast 4 kilos in just 3-4 days!!! (HOLY CHEESEBALLS!!!) Yes! It is fuckin' possible!!! Well, atleast for me.. I dunno about the others, but since it works for me.. I might aswell share it to the world!!!

First of all, I am NOT gonna post my original weight here.. not until I lost atleast 10 kilos 'coz it's just embarassing!!!

Okay, so.. I've been doing this routine for about 3 or 4 days now.. (I don't know exactly but yeah..)

First of, I'm gonna tell you guys what I eat during breakfast and lunch! And yeah.. no dinner, 'coz I don't eat dinner no moes! But I remembered I was so hungry that I had to eat.. but I ate after 6pm! Okay so here it goes..

BREAKFAST:
* Bread and egg / coffee
* Rice with (uhh.. your ulam) / coffee

LUNCH:
* I actually eat anything I want to! Including chocolates! And drink anything I want.. like for example, sodas and uhh.. Café au lait in can!

DINNER:
* None!!! I don't even drink water.. I just let myself starve! Forreals!!! And yeah.. don't stress yourself if you're super hungry! Eat atleast a half cup of rice with your ulam but do it after 6pm! I did that once and yeah.. I still lost weight!



Activities:
Almost everyday (except maybe when I'm on yasumi) I would start my morning by eating my breakfast! Since I don't eat dinner.. I tend to get real hungry in the morning so yeah, I eat breakfast! And then what I do is when I go to work, I walk a 10-15 minute walk to the train station and then walk again for the bus stop.. so estimating the time that'll atleast be a 20 minute walk in total (lol. I'm no good in math, I'm just actin' all smart! You don't have to believe me) Then, yeah.. I work my butt off and get sweaty and everyday, I would be smoking atleast 4 sticks of cigarettes a day and would walk afterwards! And I always sleep early.. like, everyday, I would always sleep by 9:00pm and would wake up by 5:00am (except today.. 'coz when I got home from work I took a nap, so now.. I don't feel so sleepy! And tomo is my yasumi so, it's totally cool.)



So yeah that is it and P.S.:

< I'm not trying to be a bad influence or whatever.. but, I just wanna share how I lose me some weight! I'm not trying to command you guys to do how I do it.. It's your choice! After all, we all have different body types.. and not everything that works for me may also work for you guys, so yeah.. I hoped you atleast enjoyed reading!!! >

If you have a crush, like me! I bet you know this feeling.. This sorta ticklish feeling from the inside that makes you feel like you're floating and surrounded by hearts while having your micro lens eyes at him!

Well.. this is about my crush again.. And I'll try to make this one short 'coz this is a pretty long story..

So.. since I was dissapointed of what had happened yesterday.. I figured today, I'd ignore him! But, I guess no matter how much I try to ignore him.. the more he makes me want to notice him! This morning I was minding my own business (well doing my job, what else?!) Then, I know I was in his way, but since am tryin' to ignore him.. I ignored the fact that I was in his way and that I should just continue.. and focus of what I was doing.. and since he can't make me get out of the way, He kinda, uhh what do you call that like, held on to me and like created this friction between our bodies so he could get pass.. and he didn't even say like, 'Uhh hey, excuse me, but you're in my way' but he just went through and I'm like.. 'Holy cheeseballs! I'm never washing my clothes again!' But, that's stupid.. 'course I'll wash it.. I don't wanna be stinky around him!

And yeaaah.. I was so happy that I ignored the fact that I was ignoring him that day!!!

So next story was.. it was the end of our lunch break.. and then, I know he was at my back, I just pretended I didn't notice him and walked slowly so I could look back at him and just do this 'bleeeeehhh' gesture at him (lol it was in my plan! lololol) and then he liked chased me so he could get his hands on me! Like forreal! Omg! And I was so happy! I hope he really likes me.. 'coz if he does, I will just say YES! YES YES YES I'll be his gf! lololol.

Another story was, I was at the back, putting the tare's on its' case and then, he came in from the freezer and he was like, 'samui yo na' (it's cold huh?) And I was like laughing and he said, NANDAYO again.. ughh my favorite line of his!

Then, I told Tita Josephine about it and that I should've just hugged him since it's cold anyway.. and that is what HE meant anyway.. so I ended up regretting not hugging him!!! lololol.

And then when we was about to head home, I waved at him goodbye.. and again, he waved his super sexy hands at me! AND JUST FO ME! JYEAAAH! So, yeah.. me and Megumi chan was about to head home and decided to take a smoking break and share convos! So, she said that Machang said that once we all had our salary.. he is inviting us all to drink! But since am 18.. I can't drink ('coz japan allows people to drink and smoke by the age of 20! WTF!!!) so.. I told Megumi chan to just change it to Karaoke then! Then she said she'll tell Machang! WEEE ~ omg I cannot wait for kyuryo!!! I LOVE YOU MACHANG! HUHUHUHUHUHU! PLEASE BE MINE!!!!

Okay.. so that was that, and yeah.. super corny but whatever! I like talking about him! So I'll talk about him..

Oh and hey! I lost 3 kilos today!!! Yay!

P.S.
I've been meaning to tell this on my blog for so long I just forgot..
Okay, so.. I've seen Mask Rider's full face! AND HE IS NOT CUTE AT ALL MAN!!!
HE LOOKS LIKE A FUCKIN' RAPIST!!! LOLOLOL
I REGRET EVERYSINGLE STARE I MADE WITH HIM!
AND THE BLOG POSTS I FUCKIN' MADE ABOUT HIM! IT WAS SO AWKWARD!!!

So today was like, an 'I hate this day' day..

Reason, is because nothing happened at all!!!

I mean, nothing happened, I was just starin' at him all day and feeling butterflies but yeah.. nothing is as exciting as it was yesterday!

I'm gonna cut to the chase 'coz I honestly don't wanna talk about this day.. but I'll talk about it anyway 'coz I want to put more post in this blog! Ehehe..

Okay so.. I think the only good thing about this day is that I get to know his full name.. he never told the others, but when I asked him directly, HE FUCKIN' TOLD MEH! (I knew it! He LIKES ME!!!) lololol.

So, his name is SHINYA MATSUO! (omg so unique!) NOT ONLY DO I LOVE HIM, BUT I ALSO LOVE HIS NAME!!! AND I WANT HIS LAST NAME!!! JYEAAAH!

Okay okay.. I'm bein' hyper again.. so, now to tell you guys the most.. urgghhh irritating part of my day.. Machang (my love!) was super busy to notice me!!! I know it's sad! But not only that, my co-worker who already has a hubby keeps flirting with him!!! And I'm a jealous type of person so, if you slander with my future man! I will.. urghh.. (be nice erika.. be nice!)

I know she knows I have feelings for this guy.. and for her to flirt with him infront of me is not nice.. I know I don't have the right to get jealous 'coz she already has a hubby and my Machang is taken.. but, I'm a super sensitive girl! So.. yeah.. can't blame meh! But whatever, she's wrong too.. 'coz she already knows how I feel! So that ain't right! TOTALLY VIOLATING THE GIRL CODE!!! OMG!!!

Okay, so.. it was our kyuke and he was there having conversations with her and her friends (well my friends too but..).. laughing!!! Oh.. remembering the laughter hurts my ears!!!

And yeah.. after that, I was all silent.. pretending my head hurts but they have no idea that what is really hurting.. is my HEART!!! And I ignored Machang after that.. huhuhu *WHY?!?!*

Whatever.. I just don't wanna focus all my attention on him tomo.. I'm gonna focus on WORK WORK WORK!!! HMP!

Maaan..... This. I mean, HIM! HE will be.. MY BOYFRIEND! Pretteh sooooon.. or sooner.. or uhh.. whatever! Well, I do hope that he'll be my bf! He is so nice and super cute (well, for me.. I dunno about the others, but who cares?!?! I'm the one who's gon' date him anyway or yeah.. if! lololol.) AHH I REALLY REALLY LIKE HIM!!!

< *takes a break 'coz am being posessed again* >

Okay, so today was one of the nicest day my life has to offer me so faaar! Despite the fact that I had a warning in my job.. because! I move too slow when working, which is SO NOT TRUE! I am no slowpoke especially when it comes to working! And I know, I am really really trying my best 'coz I wanna make a good impression on my crush.. Matsuo san!!! Which I'll be seeing again tomo! Weee.. can't wait! No wonder I sleep early now.. 'COZ I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW TO SEE HIM! I LOVE HIM NOW!!! lololol.

And yeah, since I'm this person who hates being judged.. The warning kinda took over me and in my mind, I'm all like, 'I must hurry with my phasing.. hurry hurry hurry!!!' And because of that whenever Shunin would ask me to do something, I dunno what he wants me to do exactly because I cannot focus! So, he shouted at me (well, not intentionally 'coz he is just that type of person, well.. no wonder he has no wife yet!) And I did kinda got sensitive and just cried! Well, cried silently, ('coz am no baby no moes) while working with this numb co-worker of mine (Yoshida san) who didn't even asked me what's wrong 'cause she is just.. weird! And numb.. lifeless.. urghh whatever! So, Machang visited me on where I was assigned to and I was still crying but I covered up my face 'coz I don't want them to know (especially the Shunin) that I am being super sensitive 'coz that may lead me to losing my job! So, he said, 'The job is almost done huh?!' *in a super cute tone* And I'm like 'Uhh.. yeah', 'coz am crying! huhuhu.. and I know he knows am crying 'coz he was like trying to look at my face but yeah.. Shunin called him! (way to go Shunin for ruining a perfectly good moment!) So, the crying stopped and inside I felt so relieved and happy because I felt his concern and it's a wonderful feeling!!!

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Okay, so.. it was lunch and we were eating and all and he came in and I'm just like *ohmygoshohmygoshohmysgosh* and he noticed our food lololol (I know he's there 'coz am there and I know it! lololol) and then yeah, he removed his head gear kinda thing (well, it's our uniform soo.. urghh) And wow.. It's like I've seen a unicorn! He has long (well not that long) sexy hair and it's just.. WOW! Just wow..

THEEEN, it's time for work! And I wanted to make up for what had happened in the morning 'coz I ignored him *why would I ignore him?! Fuck!!! I'm so stupid* So, what I did was.....

Me: Nee.. Matsuo san!
Hey Matsuo San!
Matsuo: Nani?!
What?!
Me: Nanimonai yo!!!
Nothing!!!
Matsuo: NANDAYO!!!
WHAT IS IT!!!

HAHAHA!!! This trick always works.. haha

And theeen,

Me: Neeeee~
Heyyy...
Matsuo: *with this cute WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT WITH ME stare* NA-NI?!
WHA-AT?!
Me: *In a tinie tiny voice* uhh.. wasurechata mo!
uhh.. I forgot
Matsuo: *gets closer* Eh? Eh?! Nani?!?!
Me: WASURECHATA YO!!!
Matsuo: Nanka.. atama warui da ne?!?!
You are crazy huh?!?!

I know, I know.. bad impression! But I wanna make friends with him first! So don't judge!!!

And then..... when we're about to go home, he waved his hand especially FOR ME! FOR ME ONLY AND WHILE STARING AT ME! !@#$%^&*()_+!!! I LOVE YOU NOW!!! PLEASE BE MINE!!!

And yeah, Tita Josephine took a picture of him during lunch! *secretly* SHE IS SO NICE I LOVE HER NOW TOO!!!

NOT HIS BEST PICTURE! NEXT TIME, HE WILL HAVE HIS BEST PICTURE.. WITH ME!!! BWAHAHAHAHA!!!

I know I said I'll be posting updates about my crush everyday, but I'm a beezy person too (loljk. I just don't have the time to blog 'coz when I get home from work, I eat then go straight to bed) aaand me and my crushes have different yasumis.. so that means when they're on their yasumis, I have work.. so yuh!

So, about my crushes.. Mask Rider person and Kumiya.. I am no longer in like? (LOL) with 'em anymore.. 'coz I don't get to see Mask Rider as often as usual and I am no longer attracted to Kumiya because he is cold.

I already 'interrogated' Kumiya, about his age, if he's married and if he already has a girl and he said, he's 24, he lives alone and he doesn't have a gf (LOL) poor guy, he lives alone! Sad to say.. I am no longer interested in him because he is cold to me.. and I fall for nice and friendly guys! So yuh!

But, I have a new crush.. his last name is Matsuo (he won't tell us his first name), but everybody calls him Machang at work.. at first, I am not attracted with him 'coz I usually get attracted to someone if they have a nice face (I know, I'm a superficial and shallow human being). But, it's different with him. He is kinda the assistant of our supervisor and yuh.. he looks after us everyday, except when he's on yasumi.. and the first time we kinda met? Is when we were packing some packages and then he's there and I kinda didn't see him so I was carrying this empty box so recklessly that I accidentally hit him with it on the head, but I didn't realize it until he kinda gently pat my head! And shocked I told him gomenasai while laughing 'coz I didn't see him being a jamma there..

And it all started there.. at first I kinda thought he likes me 'coz he keeps calling my name, 'Erika! Erika!' bakkari.. and always talks to me and yesterday he kinda played with me? So yuh! I started falling for him two days ago 'coz I really like the way he talks, the way he moves (LOL), his skin, his voice and he's really friendly and he looks like a bunny! And.. he's just so cool! So, I fell for him so easily.. AND HE REMINDS ME OF THIS GUY!

< Eddie Cahill from CSI: New York >
He kinda looks like Eddie Cahill except he's asian! With chinky eyes!!!

So yesterday, I asked him, how old is he and he went closer to me and said he is 29 and he's turnin' 30.. and I was shocked 'coz he kinda acts like a 21 year old, so I was expecting him to be 25-ish, but still.. I don't care if he's 11 years older 'coz I like him so much! And desperate enough to know more about him, I asked Miu chan to ask him if ever they'd encounter in the tobacco station, if he's married or if he has a girl.. And then, when we're about to go home, Miu chan told me he's not married but he has a gf so I was really shocked 'coz he already has a girl! And they could possibly marry soon 'coz of their age.. and I suddenly felt so down and I wanna give up but something inside me kept telling me to wait and not give up.

And I think I won't give up.. after all, we've only knew each other for more than a week! And there is this possibilty that someday he'd fall for me 'coz he already notices me.. all I got to do is just be me and just study more japanese! And yeah.. lose weight! My number one priority as of this moment! So yuh.. I guess I'll be blogging about him soon.. and my progress! lololol. no more crush updates 'coz that's stupid.. and I only like one person now.

< JUST A SHORT POST 'COZ I'M INSPIRED AND I WANT EVERYBODEH TO KNOW ABOUT MY CRUSH UPDATE >

I know, this is stupid and desperate.. but I just wanna do something in my life okay?! so don't hate. So today, I have this great idea in my mind right now that I wanna try. I will be posting blogposts everyday talking about my crush and things I'll do to make him notice me! Or even like me! IN SHORT, TO MAKE HIM MINE! *lololol* I'll even go on a diet and make myself prettier everyday just so my crush would notice meee! And I think it's a great idea so it'll motivate me to go on a diet even further, get more readers and be an inspiration! *lololol* but this post is legit I tell you.. I am raising my right hand right now (no I lie ahaha) while typing and pledge that I will definitely stick to this crazy idea! And this idea will totally benefit me!

First, let me begin by telling you that now, I have two crushes.. the first one is Mask Rider and the second is my not-so-type-shy-guy-but-he-really-looks-foineee-so-he-is-passable.. I have no pet name for him yet but I'll make one for him once I get to know him, and jyeee he looks like this guy!

< Matsuda Shota >

I don't know but he's not much of my type 'coz he's shy and like he doesn't help out the grannies when we're all working, like for example, this granny will carry this big 'ol box and instead of helping the poor helpless granny.. he'll just look! And observe! Is he a gentleman or what?! Wtf! Anyway, he doesn't talk that much, but when he talks, he's so polite so I guess that's a plus! As for my first crush, he is such a mystery that's why I like him!

Okay, now time for the update, yesterday I've already asked the name of my second crush.. and his name is Osuka Kumiya. I really like his name.. 'coz it's so cute so that's a plus! And he's so polite.. I asked him what his name was and he responds with his manly voice using polite words and when I told him hajimemashite extending my right hand he hand shaked me with two hands! So jyeeeaaah! Now my second plan is to ask how old he is.. My co-worker thinks he's 27.. 25.. but I think he's 23? I guess.. I dunno and I bet this guy's otaku! I just think so..

Okay, as for my Mask Rider.. (Rider?! really?! lololol) I encontered him down the hall today when we was about to leave and I was so happy seeing those pretty eyes and his adowable nose! Teehee! And I told him otsukaresamade~su! And he replied, otsukaresamadesu and bowed to me like I'm some kind of majesty! Ahhh Japaaan!



So that's about it! Stay tune for more.. (who da fuq em I kiddin nobodeh reads this piece of crap!) And I hope I gain more confidence so I'll be able to do more action fearlessleh!!!

P.S.:
So I guess this is not a short post after all! "JUST A SHORT POST" <--- lololol
I make myself lol sometimes!

ADDITIONAL POST:
Did I mention this is a short post?! lololol
I just wanna add this 'coz I just want everybodeh to laugh at me for being a dumbass!
Okay now, so.. by 6:30 in the morning I'll be leaving the house to walk to the train station and catch my train at exactly 6:45.. it's a 10-13 minute walk between my house and the station.. so, as usual, I left home then suddenly, I felt like changing clothes! So, I went back and changed clothes then, resumed on walking until I get to the station.. I'm almost near the station and it's just 2 minutes away when I started to check on my bag to ready my money.. realizing, that I LEFT MY FUCKING WALLET HOME! THEN I HAVE TO GO BACK! AND MY TRAIN IS ABOUT TO COME AND IT WON'T WAIT FOR ME SMH! So, I ran home, took extra money just in case I didn't make it and I have to get a cab then rode the 6:59 train and who would've thought I'd make it! Panting my way to the bus! I've never felt so relieved.. Ahhhhh.. thanks to my lucky turtle charms that is in my pocket, I've made it!!! YAY!!!

NOW IT'S TIME FOR..... TOTALLY APPLICABLE ADVICE FROM YOUR MAJESTY!!!

*NEVER EVER EVER EVER!!! GO BACK ONCE YOU'VE STARTED!!!*
- maaan! That is deep! RESPECT. lololol

Another one of my boring posts 'coz I'm not gonna put pictures in it, but I'm just gonna tell you guys how I've been doing with my new job and what happened in my other job aaand I'll be telling about a guy I've been liking right now.. jeeeee..... :*:・(￣∀￣)・:*:

So, today's my yasumi! And I'm stuck at home, resting and cleaning this pigpen house! (and now I'm typing this blog and after this I'm gonna play Sims 2.. ahh my life!) I am really really о(ж＞▽＜)ｙ ☆ REALLY ENJOYING my new job 'coz the job is pretty easy.. time flies so fast and I love all my co-workers 'coz they're super nice and extremely hilarious and most of 'em are bisaya and trust me, bisaya people are the most fun people I know in my life! (in a good way.. I'm not making fun of 'em 'coz I'm part bisaya too!) AND I'M SO HAPPY! I'm liking someone in my job but I dunno if he can see me 'coz I'm wearing a mask (＾～＾), but he's wearing a mask too but I can automatically tell that he's cute 'coz his eyes are cute and I saw his nose lololol anyway, yesterday.. while working, I was busy doing something then he opened the door and the door bumped to me and I'm like, Ah! And he said gomenasai sooo politely (￣∇￣+) and I'm real shocked 'coz he noticed me! o(^▽^)o And I didn't say anything, 'coz I was still in shock at the moment (LOL so hopeless romantic type eww!) ( °д°), then, he went away to go on with his job. By the time he left I'm like, THAT'S HIM! (⌒￢⌒*) and my co-workers were like, WHO?! WHO?!?! and I told 'em that's him! My crush.. and then, ate Josephine (the old-timer) told me that my mask rider (lololol) has a gf in the same building except this girl works in the office and is super pretty with long curly hair and is japanese and my mask rider is a super jealous guy.. and that, if he is your bf, no other guy is allowed to talk to you! Well, actually.. I'm not dissapointed by the fact that he's a jealous type of person.. I'm dissapointed by the fact that he already has A GIRLFRIEND! 。・ﾟﾟ･(≧д≦)･ﾟﾟ･｡ AND THAT IS SUPER PRETTY! And I can't beat that! 'Coz am fat, I can't even speak proper japanese sentence, I have short ugly hair, my face breaks out A LOT! I'm ugly! And did I mention that I'm fuckin' FAT! So.. I guess I'll just have to DREAM about this guy again.. and just HOPE that it'll come to reality someday! MAAAN! WHY AM I SOO UNLUCKY when it comes to guys! ( p_q) Like, everyfuckin' time.. I go on liking someone.. then, either that guy's going away to Canada or he already has a pretty gf! 。(´д｀lll) And then I end up with guys I don't like! (Not even a slight interest) They like me.. but I don't like them.. and I don't even wanna be friends with them.. 'coz it'll be awkward and I don't want them to feel I'm interested, so I ignore 'em. (And I guess that's why I'm unlucky 'coz Cupid wants me to date someone I don't like instead!)
(￣へ ￣ 凸 F U CUPID!

Now, to my previous job, at the love hotel! They're all mad at me! (｡-人-｡) THE END!

Hola amigos muchachos nachos! <- Awyee pretty anime girl emoji? JACKPOT! Let's start this blog by tellin' you guys that I got a new job! Yay I'm like so happy 'coz I got me there some filipina friends and more salary! YAY! I'm gonna be rich

And jyeaaah.. fuck Manyo They all racist! (Nahh.. not really, it's just that I'm dissapointed by the fact that they didn't hire me 'coz am filipina and they're hiring Japanese people instead, and since I'm nice and all I just said okay, but in my mind I was just like, "Screw you muthafucka! I thought you're supposed to be the nice guy!" but, anyway..)

K, so now that am done with the good part, let's go to the bad part of this whole shenanigan! As you all know (WHAT ALL?! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?! NOBODEH READS THIS MOTHAFUCKIN WASTE OF CYBERSPACE!) I still have a job and I didn't tell 'em that I was gon' quit yet 'coz I'm still unsure whether I'm gonna be hired or not. So I didn't tell 'em and then I got hired which is great, but it was so unexpected 'coz my only purpose there is to go on an interview but not actually get hired yet! But it was muthafuckin' great! And I'll start workin' tomorrow (double great!) and in my mind am like, "no shit I'm hired! And I'm starting tomorrow.. holy crap! I still have a job!!!". So my dad called 'coz am late.. from work (at the love hotel) and I'm supposed to go to work there by 5pm but it's so impossible not to be late 'coz we still have a job tour.. and they toured us around and taught us how we're going to do our job and my dad kept calling and I was like yo dad calm yo dick I'll be there.. then, I texted my tita Emma which btw, is the one who told me to go on this interview, and then I told her that I got hired YAY! Then, she told me that since am hired and all there's no need for me to go to the hotel and work! So my boss called and she asked if I'm gonna be late and I immediately told her that I quit ('coz am baddass) and she's like huh?! and blah blah blah.. and then, my battery went dead! So, she called my dad and asked him what just happened, she just quit?! And my dad was like, WHAT?! and it went on and on until my dad decided, we're gonna have steak for dinner LOLOLOL.

< SCREW DIET! I'M GOING TO LAMON >

And yeah.. advice! NEVER EVER listen to loud music when on the train 'coz you might miss your stop and you'll have to go down to Nanasato and take the goddamn stairs and wait for another train and then more stairs and then walk home! 'Coz that ain't cool.. and your legs will hurt.. ahhh.. shiiit!

And 'coz I'm an icy, heartless, badass camwhore.. ヾ(＠°▽°＠)ﾉ I give you my picture, with melted mascara (LOL melted?! I dunno how to say it..) on me 'coz I cried.. boohoo..


Eeewww.. I'm so ugly! And btw, THANKS TO MY TITA EMMA AND I HER SO MUCH

I can't think of a good title so I put an erika emoji instead! Isn't it purtty?!?! (course it is, it's my name) And sooo... I'm back.. home, from work! I'm tired.. I can't sleep! Fuckin' insomia! I just said fuckin'.. I'm badass! lololol random wtf?!

So yeah.. the reason why I am typing this blog right now is because I can't sleep and because I had nothing to do but to make me feel sleepy.. so, I went through my archives and read my past blogposts and I must say I am pretty much embarass with myself and I realized that I shouldn't have typed/talked w/e like that.. but, instead of erasing it.. I didn't! So that my readers (LOL readers.. nobodeh reads this shit!) would know that I've changed.

Changed by? How?! Ok, so my first post was about copycats and then about people who t@LkK LhYk Th!sZzZk and about drunk people.. tbh, I felt really bad when I read the copycat post 'coz it's too harsh and yeah right now, I've realized that just 'coz someone did something that you did before DOESN'T MAKE THAT PERSON ALREADY A COPYCAT 'coz I am not the only person in the world who's got the right to do it. And for the people who talk like aliens.. yes, I AM TOO HARSH, again! They're NOT ALL uneducated people and NOT ALL OF 'EM are self-centered and attention whores.. IT'S THEIR STYLE and that's HOW THEY CHOOSE TO TALK/COMMUNICATE.. we have no right to judge people on how they represent themselves 'coz that's what makes them WHO THEY ARE. (fyi, my own words jyeaaah!) Yes, they're sooo irritating but we don't have to hate on them (like curse on 'em and tell them to just die!).. and I don't have to hate on them just 'coz I can't read or understand what they're tryin' to tell me (I don't have to know everything! LOLOLOL).

And last, about drunk people.. Referring to my mom and stepfather.. yes! Drunk people can be physically abusive or verbally abusive but the thing is! None of those are my parents and I'm just being overreating so.. I can't believe I just said that to them, but I am truly sorry.. I am REALLY dissapointed and I hate myself for saying those things 'coz months after, me and my stepdad grew pretty close and when we drink together now, and I don't care if he's drunk, I actually think he's way fun when drunk rather than being plain 'coz he's just serious and like, dull lololol well not really but, whatever. I guess at that time I am not used to seeing him like that especially when I don't know him that much at that time but now that I know him, I know him when he's drunk or not and I'll know what he'll do so I'ma be like, oh here he goes again. Like thhhaaat! So yeah.. the purpose of this blog is to tell people that everybody changes and people change their minds, like for example.. this! And the fact that I used to hate yellow and now, It's my bed sheet colour.. well, Chopper's there so it's cool. I'm cool with yellow now.


< I'm a bad photographer >



I say, 'it's official'. ME LIKES YELLOW NOW! >

Today I went (yes, I. 'Coz I went there by myself) to Shimamura to buy stuff for myself 'coz you know, I just meh got my $alary (ahhh.. nothing beats money you worked hard for and now you gon' spend it like a millionaire!)

Now, Shimamura is this place where you can buy clothes, shoes, accessories aaand even adowable stuffs for interior.. And it's just a wonderful place (LOL wonderful! ) 'Coz not only the clothes and the shoes, accessories etc.. are SUPWER ADOWABLE but they're CHEAP and they're NOT like China brand or Philippine clothes @ divisoria (from China lololol ) that are cheap but so fragile PLUS.. cheap clothes from the Philippines are not adowable like what they got in store here so yeah.. That's why I don't like buying clothes from the Phil.

So here are some of the things I bought hehe:


< First up is this realleh cute bra and shawts! (shorts haha) >


< Hello Kitty jyaji I don't know how to call jyaji in english, you tell me >


< A blazer type kinda hoodie (not good with clothing names) >


< 626 shirt!!! super love the design p.s. I got this from the men's section and I personally think they have way better t-shirt designs rather in girl's section and oversized t-shirt rules! so yay!!! >


< Chopper (チョッパー) futon cover! foe me! p.s. Chopper is now my new favorite character!!! >


< Skull scarf and leggings/stockings yaaay! >


< Ribbon wallet! 'Coz I ribbons.. >


< Purrty diamond lashes endorsed by me loves Natsumi chan and Suzu! >


< I bought the lash case from Shimamura but I bought the biore body wash and the brush at Sugi when I went there! >

AND LAST.....


< EGG Magazine! It's a gyaru magazine and I only bought this 'coz it has a free mirror lololol EGG doesn't always put free stuff on their magazine and I think they have one now 'coz it's their anniversary!
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY EGG!!! >